ED HICKS continued: A Great Example of the LACK of Closure to be Expected with a Cyberpath

Despite Ed Hicks' "inspired" farewell letter to *Carol* (see post on this site: ED HICKS: "Adieu Adieu" AWARD WINNING!!!) she continues to correspond with him in an attempt to gain closure (and possibly get an explanation for Hicks' behavior, treatment, etc.)

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What is sad is that rarely do targets get the closure they need and deserve from these cyberpaths. Hicks, like most of his breed, continues to toy with *Carol* like a cat with dying mouse, via email. Many cyberpaths will cut off communication and run or think up "dramatic" problems (like an 'email' from their 'cousin' saying the cyberpath has died in a car accident or been called up for military duty.... etc).

Sometimes they just say "my partner found out" and block your email and IMs so you are left dangling with questions. Or say they will be back 'when things calm down' only to never appear again! Attempts to gain some further explanation or closure often cause them to charge the target with stalking and obsessive behavior. (click here to see a wonderful article: "THE SMEAR CAMPAIGN OF THE ABUSER") They will tell their partners that the TARGET started the relationship, planted or made up the 'relationship' and/or that they have changed, found religion and will cut all ties with the TARGET. (For some of the typical 'lines' these predators use click HERE)

In reality, the target is left with unanswered questions and often unpaid debts in this horrible pattern of Emotional Rape. The target is made to look like a fool while the Cyberpath either goes on to new targets or buys some time with their partner and with good behavior and in a few months or years -- goes right back on the prowl while learning to be more covert and cover their past misteps. - *Fighter*

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From: *Carol*
Sent: Thursday, September 25, 2003 3:26 PM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

My love -

I've started this email several times. But tears keep getting in my way. My thoughts are I have been waiting for you to tell me it's over and I would be relieved. But that's not the case. I knew when you left Monterey things would never be the same between us. But I wanted to believe in my heart that you would love me enough to say hey forget about circumstances and let's try after a few years of being apart.

I'm crazy to believe that might still happen. I also want to feel sorry for myself or go do something stupid like sleep with someone I don't love. But that's not me. I hate empty love making. (Sorry to say *Carol* - Ed doesn't)

I haven't had the desire to be with anyone accept you. So much for freedom. Not sure where I'm going with this email. But It's best I leave work early today. I need sometime to myself.

You stay dry from the rain.

*Carol*
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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Sent: Friday, September 26, 2003 4:09 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

Honey, I am sorry for the heavy heart I have caused you. Believe me I feel the same way. I just know after reviewing your last few emails that this was the only course of action I could take. Sometimes loving a person is putting them before yourself and understanding what is best for both of you. (And I want to look like a great guy while I dump you!)

I too do not know what to do or where we go from here. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy and I have not provided that for you when I thought I could. Distance has taken its toll on both of us.

I want you to move on. If we were meant to be we will be. I believe in destiny; you have a strong faith in God. Distance does not change things that are meant to be. (Ed where are you GETTING this claptrap?)

I sit here with tears in my eyes and a heart with a huge chunk missing. (and laughing my butt off - free sex and you paid all the rest of my bills when I was with you!) You were the best thing to happen to me as far back as I can remember. Take with you the fact that I will always love you. That means Always. (Or at least until I hit "Send")

To keep in touch when our hearts are much calmer is something I would like to do. You be the judge of how you handle communication between us. For now with feelings so apparently close to the surface I am not sure writing right now is the best thing. It only serves to refresh the hurt we both feel.

*Carol*, I love you very much. You take care of yourself. Find happiness and be happy. (And stop writing me because if you find out who & what I really am you are going to feel even worse)

Charles (Ed) Hicks
Army Electronic Library Branch
Standards and Technology Division
U.S. Army Publishing Directorate
Phone: 703-428-0565 [DSN: 221-0565]

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From: *Carol*
Sent: Monday, September 29, 2003 4:38 PM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Subject: RE: How is your day going?
Importance: High

Ed
I have one thing to ask you. It's regarding my daughter. ### really admires you. She thought enough of you to buy you a ticket to Hawaii. She constantly ask about you and shows concern about your health.

Can you at least send her half of the money she spend on the ticket?

Please consider this.

I know you are a good person and will send something. I respect you as a man and Father. (Respect is the one thing Ed Hicks deserves NONE of ) I would not like her to know that we are not seeing each other yet. She will be disappointed. (Typical Target - doesn't want anyone to know how stupid they were!!)

Thanks I will be really grateful if you do

*Carol*
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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Sent: Tuesday, October 07, 2003 5:58 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

Just arrived back from travel. I could view your email but could not respond until now. Our Internet portal is all messed up. (Lies, Hicks was married to wife #7 and couldn't & wouldn't respond to *Carol*)

I would not forget ### in all of this. (I will take care of the money to ###. - NOTE: Ed never sent dime one for that ticket) Paying for two kids at once is a drain. (Wife #7, Sandra, was helping pay for Ed's kids) The kids tuition rates are up along with everything else associated with college and it is sucking me dry. They are talking about increasing rates by 25% next year. They are pricing us poor folks right out of school. Rest assured I would never tell ### anything about us. You handle that end of things. (Yeah, tell your daughter her mom's been conned)

I trust you find what you are looking for and need. (Ed sure did! Next!)

Love Always,
Charles (Ed) Hicks
Army Electronic Library Branch
Standards and Technology Division
U.S. Army Publishing Directorate
Phone: 703-428-0565 [DSN: 221-0565]

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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Sent: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 8:33 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

It is hard for me to sit back and not look upon you as my partner. I will try to be as objective as possible still given the fact that I love you very much. Giving you freedom to move your life in different directions as you require it was done out of love. Not what I wanted but when you love someone you do what is best for them and not yourself. (Typical 'backwards talk' of a psychopath - reverse this last sentence for the TRUTH)

So, on a personal note what is the problem or what is wrong? Remember, we were in love, lovers, and friends. You can tell me what poses the statement, “ not doing so well” and I will give you my opinion or maybe how to solve it. I already know it will not be what my heart wants to tell you but being a friend I am obligated to give you the best advice I can. (GAG!)

Hope your trip to LA went well and you had fun if that is what the trip was all about.

Thinking of you always, (and reverse this sentiment too!)

Charles (Ed) Hicks
Army Electronic Library Branch
Standards and Technology Division
U.S. Army Publishing Directorate
Phone: 703-428-0565 [DSN: 221-0565]

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From: *Carol*
Sent: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 9:38 AM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

Hi Ed

I have come back from being in LA all last week. You are still doing travel? Hope it isn't as much as before.

I'm not doing so well on a personal note. But thinks for saying you will take care of ### (should have gotten the money thing in WRITING!)

Thanks
Love
*Carol*

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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Sent: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 11:15 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

There is no understanding. I know what feelings are there. You did not make me stay nor did I make you. Yes, you are correct, we had freedom all the time but loving someone wouldn’t allow us to act on that freedom. That is a matter of choice. Sure missing is one thing but terminating a love affair that has been on going for over 5 years is another. I listened to your letters and they made me notice what you were really saying. So I made a decision based on what I thought was best for you and what was in your letters to me. (Tell her you are married and involved with a couple other women and haven't divorced a couple of your other wives either, Ed!)

I am immersed in this God forsaken place, which I hate. Things here move fast and most of the time without reason. This was just not the time to add a life to mine. (Besides I already am married to a few women and just married #7 a few months ago) Knowing I could not and would not ask you to wait any longer there was only one logical choice to make. If I lost you as a result than that would be on me. If for any reason we endured and could pick up the pieces later I would welcome that, naturally.

I do want you to try it though. I want you to be sure of what life has for you and also if you are missing anything out there. You are a smart girl and will make the correct decisions as far as men are concerned. One thing to remember, I would take you back if you could not make another relationship work. You will always be my friend, lover and the love of my life. (HA HA HA!! how many times a day do you say that Ed?) Nothing could or would ever change that. Let yourself relax, stop feeling like you have lost something. (Because you have not and never will) All I ask is that you be smart in how you deal with men. Take all the precautions you should so you remain healthy. I don’t want to hear any horror stories, which relate to you. I could not deal with you contracting any of the numerous diseases that are out here. We surely cannot tell what a person has by looking at them. (Okay, I will stop the lecture) (Tell her the names of the NUMEROUS partners you had before during & after her so she can tell her DOCTOR Ed!)

I think hearing from you is a lot better than not. So, if we keep in touch that would be the best for me. (I really get off thinking women still BELIEVE my B.S. and it helps me hone my lies) If you find remaining in touch is keeping you from exploring other avenues than by all means let me know and we can discontinue correspondence. (Oh how GALLANT Ed!) I want the very best for you My Love. Get out and look. Satisfy yourself in what is out there and if things turn out to be not what you expected, you know I will be here for you. (I can always use you....again)

Love Always,
Ed
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From: *Carol*
Sent: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 11:59 AM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

Ed

I feel like I have gone through a no fault divorce. My mind, heart and soul is for you and no one else. (like a spider with a fly, *Carol* is now emotionally paralyzed by this cyberpath)

Why would think I want freedom from you when I have had it all along? It's been mine the entire time. (you have also been ALONE all this time too, *Carol*)

However I choose to believe, admire and love you. My feelings have not changed. What is suppose to change my feels for you? Maybe if I can get an understanding. Then I can cope with the hurt and fear that I have of moving on.

Love
*Carol*

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From: *Carol*
Sent: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 3:14 PM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr USAPA
Subject: RE: How is your day going?

Ed

Thanks for making this difficult situation make sense to me. I needed to hear that you will still be there or somewhere in my life. I realize that you are trying hard to make the best of your life where you are living at this time. I also realize that isn't where you want to be. Yes, you are right. It would not be wise to bring someone into a place where you are not happy. I understand your feelings. (Ed's married to wife#7 *Carol*!!)

I would not want to be with you unless you where living in a place of happiness in your life. If you were not happy I wouldn't be either. My feels for you are so strong. They scare me. Trust me I have tried to go out and enjoy other men. But when it comes to being intermit my heart or body will go there and it hasn't since the last time we were together in December of last year.
When I met you I had not been intimate for almost three years. Here is where my faith thru prayer came into play. Although we are not married I still maintain my self because I LOVE YOU HONEY.... (Cyberpaths love this: Needy, Trusting, Compassionate! Run *Carol* Run)

So you will not have to wonder about me contracting diseases. There is no one here that has or will ever replace you. Until you tell me you have found someone else and are in a committed relationship. I will continue to wait for you out of respect and love. (*Carol* get tested NOW. Cyberpaths look at women like they are a blow up doll with a pulse)

I would find it hard to share anything about another man with you. I would not like to know anything about you in this area . It would add to the pain. I'm not ready for that at this point. Maybe one day. But it at this point I'm not ready at all.

You are still in my heart and I find it very hard to move a stranger in to replace you. I'm sorry.... (so are we *Carol*)

Love always
*Carol*

Ed Toying More With Another of His Victims

These emails were sent 2 weeks after Hicks married wife #7, Sandra! (our comments in purple - Fighter)

From: *Carol*
Sent: Wednesday, June 11, 2003 9:48 AM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Subject: Good Morning

Hi Ed

How are you? I hope all is well. I know starting a new job is very demanding. You will do well as always.

I sent you a card from my MSN account. I'm not sure if you got it. But anyway I hope you a good Father's Day. Missing you as always

Love
*Carol*
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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Sent: Wednesday, June 11, 2003 7:17 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: Good Morning

No Sweetie (GAG!!!) I did not get a card. (Typical predator, he got it - just toying with her MIND!) Just the thought is great though. How are you doing? Are you finished with scheduling yet. If not let me know when you will have some free time.

I was just headed out the door to a meeting in the adjacent building but just wanted to send you a response back so you know I got your email.

Let me know about the free time. I will be back in the office in about 2 hours.

Also, my office phone number has changed since I moved. The number now is 703-428-0565.

Stay sweet. (Because I am NOT!)

Ed
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From: *Carol*
Sent: Wednesday, June 11, 2003 10:27 AM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Subject: RE: Good Morning

Yes, I'm done. I feel so much better since Scheduling has been completed. There are some technician problems that have not been resolved with the schedules having to be downloaded into NPS database.

Most of the scheduling information didn't download into NPS's database. Therefore no one can view the schedules at this point. But my part is over.I'll be free this afternoon, if you mean to day.

The technician will be working from Arizona on my computer all morning to see if there is something wrong with my database. (you need someone to work on your conscience - it seems to be MISSING)

I won't be able to use my computer for the most part of the day. But I'll be here at my desk. (Love talk at work? what a great use of TIME, Ed.... so your NEW WIFE doesn't hear it?)

Take care and thanks for the new number.

Love you
*Carol*
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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Sent: Wednesday, June 11, 2003 10:47 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: Good Morning

Hon (BLECH!), that is great. I know you get awfully stressed during that time. Did ### ever address the issue of getting you another person of some value? Knowing him he will just leave it and hope it goes away by itself. Hopefully ### can fix the error. Most skilled technicians can take care of it for you.

How is the weather there? I know according to ### (He talks to ### almost everyday) the weather has been up and down. I want to finish this project I am working on so I can get there for a few days. If I can get my cousin to come stay with the kids (cousin? HA!! he's pawning off his kids on HIS NEW WIFE?) I would like to stay for a week. You know me, I hate depending on anyone else to do something (LOL!! like pay your bills?? or take responsibility for YOUR kids?). I will check with her to see and when and if she will do it. If not I can only stay a few days. These kids are at the age of really getting into trouble. I can sense it................ Smile.. (We need to wipe off that SMILE!!)

Okay, I had better get back to work. (Answer more emails from other women on Government time) Chat with you later.

Ed
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From: *Carol*
Sent: Wednesday, June 11, 2003 2:16 PM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Subject: RE: Good Morning

Honey
No, he has avoided the issue so far. The weather is normal for Monterey during this time of year. Lately it's been cool and no sun.

But the weekend is suppose to be warmer.
I am going to ### place in ###e from the 1st to the 6th of ###. ### is going to use her timeshare in ### and we are going to join her for a few days. Other than that I have no other trips planned until October.

It will be great to see you and be with you for a week. I hope your cousin can come. Yes you are right they are at a dangerous age.(smile) Remember what we were like at that age.....

Love you
*Carol*
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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Sent: Thursday, June 12, 2003 8:18 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: Good Morning - Thursday

Good morning *Carol*

How are things going today?

I am sorry to hear what I knew the answer would be with ###. Avoid the issue. (Just like I avoid TRUTH like the plague!)

Hopefully you will get a good streak of weather so folks there will feel better. Too many days of no sun is not good for the spirits.

So, you are headed down to ###' place. How is she doing? You girls have a great time when you are together so have lots of fun. ### is a great place. Little warm for me that time of your but still good.

My sorry cousin has not answered me yet on staying with the kids. I may have to sweeten the pot by offering money. (My new target...er, wife just doesn't seem like she'd like me leaving her alone for now, so this time I will blow YOU off *Carol*) It would seem relatives would be willing to do things for each other without that. (How about married people keeping their vows?) I reminded her that I baby sat her when she was a tiny tot and she could at least return the favor.

We just finished Gas Mask Training. All Federal and military workers here have to go through training and be issued a Gas Mask. I don't know if that is required in any other area except DC but it is happening here. It stirred up thoughts of 9/11 in some folks just taking the training and being issued a mask. I cannot think about that kind of stuff or it will drive you crazy. (On 9/11 - Hicks told Wife #6 he was AT THE PENTAGON and didn't call her all day because he was busy with then fiance, Wife #7!!! Wife #6 was WORRIED SICK!!! and Hicks was nowhere NEAR the Pentagon!)

You have a great day and smile a lot. You have a beautiful smile. I miss it very much. (HAHAHA!)

Ed
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From: *Carol*
Sent: Thursday, June 12, 2003 11:58 AM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Subject: RE: Good Morning - Thursday

Honey

Gas mask training. I bet that brought back military memories for you. (MILITARY MEMORIES?) I hope you will never have to use them while you are there.

Things are fine today. I am going home early and plan to take tomorrow off to rest from this job. Mostly to sleep.

I can't wait to get to some warm weather. However I'm still burnt from the sun in Hawaii.
### is fine. She had brought a new house in ###. But she is planning to move back to ### next year.

### is planning to retire after she sales her ### in ###.

We plan to relax, sleep eat good home made cooking and chase men...(smile)

I pray your cousin comes around. You are missed especially from the times we have shared.

### keeps asking about you. When I don't call her over a period of a few days. She thinks you are in town. She will say to me. "Is that man in town?" I have to laugh at her comments because she is funny! (Hopefully she is worried about you being with that SNAKE!)

Miss you as before
Love
*Carol*
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From: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Sent: Thursday, June 12, 2003 9:43 AM
To: *Carol*
Subject: RE: Good Morning - Thursday

Well, when I get there we will have to go by and see her. She must be lonely there in that house by herself.

Yes the training did remind me of military life. I look at it this way, if we get a warning that infectious gas is in our area it will be too late. We will have been infected by than. Just a false sense of security the Gov't wants us to have. Smile. (Not much different than the false sense of honesty & security you instill in all your targets, huh Ed?)

Sounds like you need some rest. I know with doing the scheduling there by yourself was a big task. One that sucks the life out of you. (LIKE I AM SUCKING THE TRUST OUT OF EVERY WOMAN I MEET!)

I won't comment on the chasing me statement. Smile.

### is going back to ###? What is the reason for that? I thought she was trying to get out of there for all their sakes. The kids and her Ex. (Like I run away from my exes, my obligations and anyone who unmasks me!)

I hope ### sells them okay. I would think they would be a very attractive business for someone in that area. They have to be profitable especially since the air lines are not serving food anymore.

You get out of there and get some well deserved rest. That reminds me of times past. Meeting you at your house and relaxing. Well, we could call it relaxing. I should say stimulating. Smile. (UGH!)

Be good. I am always thinking of you. (ALWAYS!!! define ALWAYS, Ed)

Love Always
Ed
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From: *Carol*
Sent: Thursday, June 12, 2003 12:50 PM
To: Hicks, Charles E Mr APD
Subject: RE: Good Morning - Thursday

### misses her children and realizes that they are not coming to live with her in ###

Also the school system in ### regrets her leaving because of her ability to turn low rating schools into high achieving School.

They also have an enticing salary for her as a Superintend some where in the systems.

Don't worry.. I have forgotten how to chase men....I'll observe. (you poor woman! at least now she knows - she was HAD!!)

Love you
*Carol*

ADDED NOTE: When Hicks & wife #7 Sandra were married? She would drop him at his job where he removed his wedding ring on his way in. NO ONE at his office even KNEW he was married! Nice touch, huh? UPDATE: Hicks has since been FIRED from this job while he was in jail for felony bigamy.